I need a place that can be my "office." i'm thinking at the crafts center im just gonna stay later and do work there and zone out.


INTERRUPTING MYSELF: My sister just said this to me: thanks for being my sister I never had a sister really and when you were little, I still didn't really have a sister but now I feel like I have a sister like in the having someone you can count on and always talk to kind of sister
I am done being mushy. I have to work

I love my family. They give me warm fuzzy feelings that I can't explain. i know they'll always be there for me. im so excited to go to synagogue tomorrow with my sister's crew. it's also gonna be wonderful being in a service where it is mostly in hebrew. sometimes i think im more conservative than i am.

EDIT: Been talking to Mor, Shimon, Feldi and Adi a lot. I miss them...

ok. on a similar note, ive always thought with the school year starting that this really is the "new year." So hear are some things I'd like to see myself do:

--write more
--check out art all the time
--read something that engages you
--travel on the weekends or whenever you places you want to go to
--do what you want whenever you want.
--don't hope for what you know isn't likely
--throw yourself into art (whatever your definition of art is...) everyday
--continue to live this spontaneous life you've chosen for yourself

Usually answers are more "read this" "go here" but i never stick to that kind of stuff. so im trying something new. less full of pressure.

what is YOUR definition of art?

First off, I'm slightly sickish. It's worse at night and in the mornings but my tonsils are the size of large marbles. Kat's sick too so she sneezes at me and I cough at her. It does mean that after I get Kristin's kids sick tonight, I am going to return home to be sick alone...

Second, I am awesome!! Broad Meadow Brook Audobon Society and Higgins Armory are both going to be at Craftmania!! Things are really looking up for that event.

Third, look what I can do ::does a handstand::

Fourth, I had a really great fall Worcester morning yesterday. i went to the farmer's market on Chandler and then the Mediterranean market. The weather is just turning now and I think I'm finally excited about fall. I got some great bread from the breadman at the Farmer's Market. You guys should check him out. Currently enjoyed roasted garlic bread....mmm

I really do think I've finally made Worcester my home. I feel like being at WCC has helped me become a strong part of the community. It's nice not just to rely solely on your school to be your community but to be able to give back to the community.

Fifth, I am scared that our nation is not going to last another week, let alone another year. Things are so messed up right now and not even if Obama is elected will everything be fixed immediately. I think I need to take all my money out of the bank and hop in my car and drive to Mexico. Who's with me? I'll get a job on a farm, learn Spanish, and won't look back.

Sixth, I really like being a photographer. Somebody should really let me take their picture.

Seventh, What's better, Organic Choices Bear or Seasonal Depression Bear? I am playing in Shaughn's game tomorrow night as well as a LARP!! I've been trying to be more creative in my free (whatever amount of free) time. It's hard in a way because I am having problems concentrating on books. I can do poetry pretty easily, lots of Heaney and Neruda.

Eighth, I've been throwing myself into a little project. I collect articles about arts education and policies related. If you know any, or read anything, please send it my way. I have an abstract project in my head.

I fell asleep on Nick's couch again last night. Really horrible mood when I got there and not so great when I left. I started to walk back to my apartment, in the clothes from the day before since I fell asleep there unintentionally. I felt like a wreck and thought I heard someone calling my name behind me but ignored it. Heard it again. Ignored it. I didn't wanna talk to anyone at 7:30 am all disheveled. However, when I heard my name called a third time I turned.

It was one of my acting kids from the crafts center. She's my neighbor. I love her. I think I really did make a difference in her life. She was so shy and quiet on the first day and had completely changed by the end of the acting week.

I like having a little buddy as a neighbor. Even if it means making small talk with her and her little sister and mother at 7:30am.

Maybe I am a communist after all...

I'm pretty sure I'm a socialist at the very least.

I've been on Obama's website, and it's making me smile. I am as liberal as I think I am...I think.

I come from an upper-middle class background but have no desire to live that kind of a lifestyle for the rest of my life. It is nice to have some financial support from my family but I just can't imagine a job where I'm not doing something artsy or with kids. Ergo: poordom for life.

But anyway. Obama. he's got this whole thing on his website about service: http://www.barackobama.com/issues/service/

I wanna work for the government and fight for the issues that effect us. it scares me when I have no control over my future.

I was getting nervous because i couldn't find info about the Obama Artistcorps I had heard about awhile ago.
FOUND IT!! You can dl the plan on his website.

The newest of my plans for Summer 2009: move to Arizona or New Mexico and work for arts centers out there.

or Americorps. Or maybe the ArtistCorps will be up and running by then.

I have taken to reading http://www.users.globalnet.co.uk/~lavie/dreamwine/silverstein2.html and a new poem everyday.

As long as I stay busy, I'm good. Keep the mind active. My first photography class went better than expected today!!